I feel like I haven’t written one of these in a while, so here goes.

11.6.13
I’m getting better slowly, I know what happiness is and I also know I can’t handle too much of it. Unfortunately I’ve fallen in love again, well it happened over a year ago, but I’ve only recently realized that I can’t forget him. I’m trying to stay strong and stay away from him, but it’s killing me. Ethan apologized to me, after 5 years, and I don’t know how to feel about that, all I know is that I don’t love him anymore. And my ex-bestfriend apologized too, which is great, we’ll never be the same, but at least we can be civil now. My best friend Jake is honestly the only person I can tolerate 24/7, I have no friends at school but that’s fine I’m concentrating on year 12. And I’m happy being single.

I think I’ll leave it there, I’m not seeing a doctor anymore either which is great. And I’m getting happy with my body too. I feel like when year 12 ends, I’ll be ready. And if I’m not, Jake will help me.

:)